Trusting People...

I think, one of my biggest flaws (if you wanna call it like that, you most certainly can), is trusting and getting attached to people too easily. I believe in honest friendships and true love. And sure, it must seem ironic giving the fact that I study what I study, but…hey, i`m only human, I do what I can, so judge me as much as u please. I think all relationships should work in such way that would make both parties peaceful, joyful and happy. And it`s damn hard to find people to make you feel that way. And I am immensely grateful for the ones I found so far and who still stick around.

Some people like to play games in order to make their lives more interesting and entertaining. And that`s fine, to a certain point where nobody gets hurt. But the lines are so thick and so easy to cross like you wouldn`t believe. To those people, and trust me, i`ve met a few, or else I wouldn`t be writing about this, I have only one question to ask: “how long do you think this is going to last?” Sure, people trust, accept and forgive for a while, but enough is enough…

I thought long and hard about changing this in my personality and as I stand before you today, I can honestly say, I do not want to. Of course, I put myself out there, I try to make things work and inevitably i`m gonna get hurt a lot, but that`s also part of life and I can live with it. In friendship and love, as in all my relationships, I don`t wanna be careful, to always count my steps and words, to always think ahead and be cautious…it`s just not worth it. I am like that in so many other areas of my life to know how to make the difference. I need people that will understand me, accept and love me as I am, with all my qualities and flaws, who would make me laugh, be near me when i`m sad or stressed, and if you are not one of them, so be it. So it`s your choose, pick wisely. You only get to live this life once, love madly and passionately and surround yourself with people you like and appreciate, and with who you can make memories you will wanna remember when you are old and senile.
This is for them, for the great people in my life :)